Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in toke_and_trip's LiveJournal:

Friday, September 22nd, 2006
12:13 pm	mystical world of elfin wonder me and aimee went shrooming. to be fair we got like fuck all and what we do have might not even be liberty caps but whatever. we went in search of a trip and instead found beauty so pure we couldn't wait to explore. seriously the moor is so gorgeus. i mean i live so near and i have been there so much bit today opened my eyes. seeing the way aimee was awed by its sheer magnitude made me realise how lucky i am to be so close and how absolutely stunning it is. there are elfin lairs and fairy gorges, paths of the pixies and rock structures straight from the heavens. we stood on the top of a hill which looked far out upon the world, we sung songs off the highest rocks we could find and i have fallen in love with the moor. We have made a pact to dissapear up there as much as we can. just to breathe in the clean air and look at an untouched place where we are so ingignificant in such a big way. i had the best day ever and aimee even managed to keep up......most of the time! Current Mood: grateful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
5:10 pm	A perfect breathe of acid Ok so acid was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. Corny i don't care but it opened my eyes to the beauty of the world we are so lucky to live in. It makes the trees shiver in the breeze and the sky drip colours i never knew existed. It gave aimee energy which is a miricle in itself and i felt like a little elfin child running around in a beautiful playground, otherwise known as totnes at night. It was just fucking amazing i loved every second of it and can't wait for my next adventure. It was such a perfect night with me and aimee experiencing a drug together for the first time and it being such a beautiful trip. Current Mood: contemplative (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 11th, 2006
4:55 pm	"This world is only going to break you apart" Paul died. One of the best people ever to have lived is gone. Forever. I will never see him again. It's weird, i met him last year and just absolutley adored him. he was so sweet and kind and looked out for everyone, he always said if i was in trouble he would come and help me but how do i do that now. part of totnes is gone, i don't think it's really sunk in yet, not properly, i cried from when i left aimee today until i came home and then i just dried up, there were no more tears. I burned myself (smilies) and i used the end of fag a bit, the pain just felt so right, something i can control. I can always hold it down even when it is agony i just can and that feeling is amazing the feeling of power. And then the pain afterwards the way i can still feel it burning on my skin, the way my skin is hot and red. It's so stupid but i just couldnt help it. I cant beleive that the guy that last summer was ecstatic on my 16th birthday cos it meant i was legal was the same guy who came back looking so small. so small and sad. it was like he died in india and all that came back was his shell, it came back to wait ot die. and now even that is gone. the last time i saw him he was sitting outside of boots, i hardly talked to him. the last time i hugged that lovely man was the summer solstace. i should have said something, done something. showed him that i cared. it would break my heart if he didnt know how much i loved him. "This world is only going to break you apart" he was an amazing guy but this world just proved too much for his gentle soul. it beat him in the end. it caught up with hi after all these years and took it's prize. it grabbed his perfect heart and sliced in in half with its malicous claws, ripping his love from him and tossing his body aside. i wish upon the eternal star that this isnt true but at the moment it is hard to think any other way. the world has become a place for the selfish gripping among us and all the rest of us can do is take enough drugs to forget. and i dont have the energy to do anything about it, i will just be swept along by the comercial materialistic bitches and just comfort myself with the thought that at least when i am exceptionaly high i wont give a shit. RIP Paul i love you. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
5:28 pm	Saturdaze night Ok so it was my birthday. 17. jesus i can drive watch out! so i went for lunch with my sister and my dad at a really cute pub place outside newton abbot, and who do i see there but naomie - she works there! so she gave me a lovely birthday drink - 2 shots of baileys and a shot of tia maria with ice. so fucking good. then nat had to leave to go up to bath where she was going to Toms ball. so me and dad went on to tinmouth where we went to some random 60's bar which was spinny and we had a good chat about everything. drugs, smoking, school, friends. everything. then we went to another bar on the beach which had loads of sketchy assed footie fans ouside being drunk, so i had a double vodka and coke - or two - and just enjoyed the sun and sand and sea. one really sketchy england shirted random winked at me when my dad went in to get me adrink so i rang aimee and pretended not to see! then we went to buy lots of nice alcohol and then we picked up aimee from her house. we drove to hannahs where dad dropped us off and then the night began. i gave out the pills i had purchased to aimee jake and myself and then just spun. out of control spinning that made me so happy that i wanted to fly to the moon and back. i was very very drunk, stoned and high. then i went for a mission with jake and teazel into town to score, so we saw some randoms spinned and had a spliff. then i collected aimee and took her to jools, but not before swopping shoes with lanky, it was funny cos he could hardly walk and was hobbling! so we saw jim, chris, felix, amber and jools. then i remembered i had to go see mish tom joshie and sky so i left and we went there, but this time i swopped shoes with chris and he did up my laces for me. so we went there and jim and chris had to go to threshers to get some straights. i was spinning at this time and blew fairy dust at them, taught them a handshake like a million times and pretended ot play the game i was so fucking shite at whilst really mish was playing for me. then chris and jim came back and i spun some more, smoked then we decided to go out. we went to magic garden and on the way i made a nice friend with pretty hair. so got to magic garden lay on the floor in front of joshie mish sky and tom and taught them the handshake some more, smoked, and was random. then jima nd aimee said we had to leave so we went back to jools and saw jake pulling amber - apparently they only kissed - and jools. then after a bit we remembered it had been ages and we were missing hannah and jaz loads so we went back and saw them. then other shite happenend, the whole night is hazy, but in the end hannah and jaz went into the house and jim and chris came to see us. chris gave me some speed, only like 3 or 4 lines but it was nice, especially the lines i had outside whilst i was looking at the stars, although jake told me in the morning there were no stars and i had been looking at them for ages so that was confusing. anywho lots and lots of other stuff happenened but iv either forgotten or its just too hazy to explain. but basically the night was fucking amazing and i love evreryone that i was with! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 6th, 2006
12:13 pm	i love the tree okay so i spent most of my day...well a large majority of it in a tree! but is isn't just any tree it's got 3 big branches like benches perfect for skinning up on and there is planty of space for everyone. Plus it has it's very own shottie bottle which admittidly is gettin kinda old right now!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
11:58 am	Tortured silence So aimee i got a thing on here - toke and trip very appropriate for that stuff, northern light purple haze...... any who i told you that i write poetry a little bit, like you said everyone does! Tortured silence Tortured silence, Tears that are never aloud to fall And words kept so tight and close to your heart Just in case…. Just in case that they slide down your throat and fly out of your solidly closed mouth Straight into the ears of those you assure your fine. Just in case they discover that you’re bleeding inside From unbearable feelings of agonising pain and resentment. Just in case the false smile you wear slips from your face And you catch a glimpse of the desolation which is slowly taking over Drowning me and trickling like fire down my spine and lighting the very earth on which I stand I avoid emotion, Hiding from it so that I don’t have to admit how hard it will be to say goodbye I’m used to your face Your voice, your figure An image constantly up close So how do I live without you? Words cut so deep That to utter them would cause a breakdown of the senses And a demolition of my heart Words that clutch at my throat Reaching far within to grasp at my existence You’ll never know how hard it was to see you go You’ll never understand the torment that racked my already ruined core You’ll never hear the words that I knew so well But couldn’t for fear of agony, speak You will never know Tortured silence Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Halleluia - Jeff buckley (3 Comments |Comment on this)